First- thank you very much to everyone who visits this page. I just recently got my 10,000th pageview, and I really appreciate everyone who stops by. Thank you.

Today has been a really hard day. My boyfriend is visiting MY parents, on a nice little vacation and I am sooo jealous. He has one more year left in college and so he is out and about enjoying the summer. I like my job but it is still painful the first time you don't have a summer to look forward to. 10 days off a year just doesn't cut it. I am hoping to take off 5 days in August... but oh, thats so far away...

Today I also made my very first official student loan payment. Oh joy. I sure look forward to doing this the next 10 years of my life. I'm grateful that I was able to go to school, and I know that I didn't take out any unnecessary funding... but it's still not very fun to watch several hundred dollars leave your account. Oh well, I guess thats life.

But what is really on my mind right now is my grandmother. I am very worried. Last year she had heart surgery and she never really recovered from it. At age 80, shes finally slowing down. We found out she has emphysema and a partially paralyzed diaphragm (she never smoked in the 24 years I knew her but I guess she smoked when she was younger) in addition to complications from her heart problems. She had a really good Dr visit earlier this week and it seemed like things were looking up... but today she had another visit with a different doctor (who is known to not be kind or comforting at all) and I don't know what happened yet, but I know she called my mother and asked if she could spend the night with her... so it sounds like she is scared. It just breaks my heart and I feel so helpless. And I really wish that my sweetheart were home with me as I'm having a hard time getting to sleep and I am going to have another stressful day at work tomorrow...

On a good note, my roommate is finally moving out, so Cole and I will have the place to oursevles. It will be slightly more expensive but the benefit for us and our relationship will outweigh the cost. He is out of here next week, and I am turning that room into my art studio. Hopefully it will allow me to focus more..

Anyway, that is the update. Please pray for my grandmother.